Saturday, August 24, 2013

#4 - Me, myself and I.

O's around the corner. In about 1-2 more months.

And the bad thing is I have not started studying yet. Because I'm lazy. I lack determination. I don't ask when I don't know. And I just give up if I still can't get the answer. I'm too lazy to study. I'm scared of O's but the fear is still not strong enough to push me to study. I'll regret when the fear is finally enough, I know.

Some teachers are also... well...
1997 batch is always the guinea pig. lol thanks. 

I got back my Chinese O's results yesterday. As expected, I didn't do as well as I expected. B3 and a merit for Paper 3. Kinda got "scolded" by my Chinese teacher because she knows I can do better than this but I'm not putting in any effort. 
And yes, I'm retaking.

I have supportive friends that offers to study with me, teach me and a few wanted to treat me to meals and even buy gifts for me if I get 15 points for my O's. My mum's ex colleagues who's studying in uni now offered to help me in my maths too.
Don't want to disappoint anyone but still... I need a cure for my laziness. 
Yes, it's an excuse. But honestly, I wish I'm more hardworking. I'm really really really way too lazy. Probably one of the most lazy girl anyone would ever know.

I'm starting to try to study. I will.



I got tagged to do the "20 Facts About Me" thingy on Instagram by a few of my friends. I've done it! Take a look (Click Here!) and follow if you haven't already done so!

I've done 50 facts about myself on my old blog before but I thought, since this is a new blog, why not do it once more? (: But I'll just do another 20 because I don't really know myself that well either HAHA.

(sigh.. why doesn't iPhone's front camera takes great picture like it's back one. time to carry my camera out more often)

1. I have a soft spot for old people. I want to help them but I don't have the courage to. So I would ask my friends to help them instead.

2. I can't tolerate stupidity. By that I mean people that have no common sense and always ask stupid questions which are pretty obvious.

3. I have an unproportionate body. My thighs are really big for my size. YES I AM FAT.

4. My love for volleyball is indescribable.

5. I miss the times when I draw for fun. Art used to be something I do to have some time on my own but now art is so stressful for me.

6. I love going to places that I've never went before. I love to explore.

7. I love photography and I wish my photography skills improve so it'll allow me to be a photographer in the future.

8. I'm going back to dance with a few of my friends after O's.

9. I AM NOT EMO 24/7 and people need to get that in their head.

10. I'm living in my own world most of the time. Yes, I talk to myself a lot.

11. I want a golden retriever but I'm afraid of dogs. No, I'm afraid of every living thing except humans and plants I guess.

12. My hair looks really thick but no, it's really thin. It just LOOKS thick.

13. I don't have a sweet tooth like most girls. I prefer savoury food.

14. I hate strawberries and I think some girls like it just because it looks really cute and pretty and idk. They're sour like effffff.

15. I wish people understand that I'm not as strong as I seem, so they would know their limits.

16. I'm old fashion. I like written notes, handmade presents, home-cooked meals etc.

17. The older I get, the more afraid I am of celebrating my birthday because I always have the fear of being alone during my birthday.

18. I have loads of haters. Like really a lot and the problem is I have never talk to more than half of them before.

19. I have friends that think I suffer from Autism.

20. I am a fast learner. EXCLUDING STUDIES.


Monday, August 19, 2013

#3 - Mirror mirror.

When did everything become so complicated?
What happened?

"I'm not crazy, my reality is just different from yours."

"I'm scared and I wish you were here to make me smile."
Aquarius are the people most hardly to be predicted, you think that's what they are but most often they're not. I wish people don't hurt me as if I would never collapse. I wish people don't think of me as a strong person. Because sometimes, being strong wouldn't do me any good. He's gonna take the advantage and stab you right in your left chest. She's gonna kiss you on the cheek and then scratch your back till it bleeds. It's scary. So scary.
"I'm scared and I wish you were here to make me smile."

My eyes were closed for about 2 hours last night and I still wasn't able to sleep. The music was playing and I had set a timer for it to stop. I had to constantly change the timer because I still couldn't sleep. Why. Why. Why. There were so much thoughts happening inside. It wouldn't stop. It was all messed up. Nothing was related and the replay button was going against me.

Mirror mirror, on the wall, 
I just want to be pretty, thin and tall.

Mirror mirror, if I change my hair,
maybe someone will start to care.

Mirror mirror, if I starve myself,
at least I'll be beautiful, forget my health.

Mirror mirror, if I cut my wrist,
will I feel like I exist?

Mirror mirror, don't you see?
What you show, is ruining me.

Friday, August 16, 2013

#2 - Phantom Of The Opera.

I said I'll blog about P.O.T.O. in another blog post, so here it is! Finally got the pictures into my laptop but please pardon the quality of the picture. Photography was not allowed in the theater so I didn't brought my camera along. All photos were taken with phones.
I have never been to musicals before. I thought they would be boring and a waste of money as their price isn't cheap either (at least for a student like me). But after going for this, I think I'm really shallow for the past 16 years of my life. Because it was great, amazing and errr.. I'm lacking of vocabs.. But you get what I mean. 

My outfit of the night with Robert.
The red heels I wore for Ignite last year almost made me crippled wtf. It's either my legs grew or the shoes shrink because I haven't touched them for about a year. And my blister broke after having it on for an hour so for the whole night, I was walking with a broken blister.

Had 20 minutes to get some food before we go in for the play so we got ourselves some food from Cold Storage and macarons from High Society. Had the hazelnut one and oh my god, it was damn damn good.
And before we went in, a group photo with the sec 4s that went.

No photography of the show allowed in the theater so it's my face my face and again, my face! But still, photos cannot describe how wonderful the play was so I really recommend everyone to go. It's located at Marina Bay Sands. Not sure when it'll end but I know it's still showing! 
Recommend you to get the one at $165 because you'll get a better view of the whole play and I am sure you'll enjoy even more than me. My school got us the one at $125. We were at the 4th level left hand side so the view wasn't really good and the woman in front of me kept on leaning forward so I had to move my head once in a while but I am thankful that I even got to watch it because it is THAT AMAZING!

Ending this post with another picture of MY FACE. haha.
Goodnight lovelies! 

Thursday, August 15, 2013

#1 - Start.

 hey loves
If you haven't noticed, this is a new blog. Everything's new. The layout, the url, everything. Okay, maybe not the photos but.. you get what I mean. I locked my old blog because I still want to keep it but I don't intend to use it anymore. The reason why I wanted a new blog because I thought it's time I leave the past behind, move on with life and hopefully it'll be better instead of bitter.

I caught Phantom Of The Opera on Tuesday with 2 teachers and a few Sec 3s and 4s. I must say I was really impressed. Their singing, the story line, the acting, the props and basically everything was amazing even though we didn't had a really good seat. It's the best trip I've ever went with my school, I'm glad I chose to go. 

I'll talk more about it in another post.