Tuesday, August 12, 2014

#44 | Alive Museum Singpore.


Have you seen pictures all obrt social media about a particular museum? Cause I have and I've been dying to go Alive Museum ever since I saw the photos flooding my timeline. Lucky enough, I got invited to Alive Museum Singapore thanks to omy.sg! So I brought JunYu along with me to celebrate National Day in advance.

Opened in 2009, Alive Museum is the original 3D visual illusion museum from South Korea. It is also the world largest chain of such an entertainment concept, where 3D art comes alive with clever painting, shading and drawing techniques. Different from normal museum, you are strongly encouraged to touch and take lots of photos of the artworks there! It is the largest Illusionary 3D Museum here in Singapore at about 10,000 sq ft, is currently its 15th branch. 
And for the Korean drama lovers, The Alive Museum in Jeju appeared in an episode of the popular 2011 Korean drama Heartstrings. The famous Seoul Broadcasting System (SBS), is a corporate partner of Alive Museum in Korea.

Anyw, there's FREE WIFI ACCESS in the museum. Take the photos with your phone and upload straight away onto your social media. Does that sound good already?!

So we went in for about 30mins and thought it ended because of the hidden doors. We were really disappointed at first when we were about to step out but we decided to go back and see if the museum is really that small. And omg, we were so so so relieved we walk back! We found a lot more rooms and we were overjoyed!

These are only a few of the paintings.
There are actually over 80 masterpieces currently in the museum, of which 9 are locally themed and unique to Singapore. What's more, 30% of the paintings will be changed every 12-18months. For special occasions like Christmas and Chinese New Year etc, there will also be special exhibits.

Suntec City Mall #03-372 (Between Towers 3 and 4)
10am-10pm Daily (Last admission at 9pm)

Ticket Prices:
Adults: $25
Children: $20 (3-12 years old)
Family Package: $60 (2Adults + 1Child)

Okay, now to the best part. Alive Museum Singapore is currently have a promotion! Like Alive Museum Singapore on Facebook (click here), purchase a full-priced ticket and redeem a FREE MEAL at Burger King Suntec (worth $7.85)! Hurry, because offer ends at 30 September 2014. Remember to present your original Alive Museum Singapore ticket prior to purchasing at Burger King Suntec.

Have fun guys!

Friday, July 25, 2014

#43 | First week of school.

Friday. This week passed by so fast. They say time pass really fast when you're enjoying right? I don't know if I'm enjoying but I definitely prefer what I'm doing now. I'm still able to concentrate and not get distracted that easily in class, and hopefully I'll remain like this till I graduate from NAFA. I'm glad I'm getting along pretty well with my classmates. I mean the few I always stick to in class... Yeah, I'm glad I have them or else I'm gonna be loner cause I hardly initiate a conversation with strangers..

But then again....

I've been thinking about it. Why do I not like strangers to this extent? Is it because of my low self-esteem? Or is it just because that's me. And still, I can't find an answer. He said I am probably affected by the imaginary audience around me. And I thought he came up with that term himself until I went to search about it.

"The imaginary audience refers to an egocentric state where an individual imagines and believes that multitudes of people are enthusiastically listening to or watching him or her. Though this state is often exhibited in young adolescence, people of any age may harbor a fantasy of an imaginary audience.

David Elkind coined the term "imaginary audience" in 1967. The basic premise of the topic is that people who are experiencing it feel as though their behavior or actions are the main focus of other people's attention. It is defined as how willing a child is to reveal alternative forms of themselves. The imaginary audience is a psychological concept common to the adolescent stage of human development. It refers to the belief that a person is under constant, close observation by peers, family, and strangers. This imaginary audience is proposed to account for a variety of adolescent behaviors and experiences, such as heightened self-consciousness, distortions of others' views of the self, and a tendency toward conformity and faddisms. This act stems from the concept of ego-centrism in adolescents.

Examples of imaginary audience: A teen that is affected by imaginary audience might be self-conscious and may worry about what other people think of them. They may change their clothes constantly before leaving the house to make sure they are presentable for everybody that is watching them. They may also spend extra time on make-up and hair to better appeal to the audience they feel they need to impress. A teen may also change their wardrobe to match “trends” that start. They may also believe that they are better than everyone else and everyone is constantly looking at them and judging, feeling the need to look “perfect”. A teen who has a pimple on their face will think that everyone will notice and that it is covering half of their face. (This is one very common example of Imaginary audience.) In reality, only a small percentage of those people have any interest in a person’s activities, and a maturing worldview will usually reduce the impression that this imaginary audience exists. Some people, however, maintain this misapprehension well into their adult years."

Source: wiki

Don't really think everyone adores me, in fact it's the opposite, I think everyone secretly hates me. I guess only the part about self-consciousness and worry about what other people think.

Thursday, July 10, 2014

#42 | I love the way you lie.

On the first page, of our story, the future seemed so bright. Then this thing turned out, so evil. I don't know why I'm still surprised. Even angels have their wicked schemes, and you take that to new extremes. But you'll always be my hero, even though you've lost your mind.
Just gonna stand there and watch me burn, but that's all right because I like the way it hurts. Just gonna stand there and hear me cry, but that's all right because I love the way you lie. I love the way you lie, oh, I love the way you lie.
Now there's gravel in our voices, glass is shattered from the fight. In this tug of way, you'll always win even when I'm right. Cause you feed me fables from your hand, with violent words and empty threats. And it's sick that all these battles are what keeps me satisfied.
Just gonna stand there and watch me burn, but that's all right because I like the way it hurts. Just gonna stand there and hear me cry, well that's all right because I love the way you lie. I love the way you lie, oh, I love the way you lie, oh.
So maybe I'm a masochist. I try to run but I don't wanna ever leave. Till the walls are going up, in smoke with all our memories. 
The morning, you wake, a sun ray hits your face. Smeared makeup as we lay in the wake of destruction. Hush baby, speak softly. Tell me you're awfully sorry that you pushed me into the coffee table last night so I can push you off me. Try and touch me so I can scream at you not to touch me. Run out the room and I'll follow you like a lost puppy. Baby, without you, I'm nothing. I'm so lost, hug me. Then tell me how ugly I am, but that you'll always love me.
Then after that, shove me, in the aftermath of the destructive path that we're on, two psychopaths. But we know that no matter how many knives we put in each other's backs, that we'll have each other's backs cause we're that lucky. Together, we move mountains. Let's not make mountains out of molehills. You hit me twice, yeah, but who's counting? I may have hit you three times, I'm starting to lose count. But together, we'll live forever, we found the youth fountain.
Our love is crazy, we're nuts but I refused counselling. This house is too huge, if you move out, I'll burn all two thousand square feet of it to the ground, ain't shit you can do about it. With you I'm in my fucking mind, without you, I'm out it.
Just gonna stand there and watch me burn, but that's all right because I like the way it hurts. Just gonna stand there and hear me cry, but that's all right because I love the way you lie. I love the way you lie, I love the way you lie. I love the way you lie, I love the way you lie.

Monday, June 23, 2014

#41 | I'll be okay, soon.

I tried controlling myself but on Saturday, I finally lost it. I've done so many stupid things this past few weeks just to forget you. And obviously, I regretted almost all of them. Not all, almost all.
I've also started to go home really late or I'll just go home in the morning when mummy's already at work. I don't know but I feel bad cause I'm seeing mummy lesser and lesser but then I don't want to stay at home because I do think a lot more at night when I'm alone.... like it's not enough in the day...
I hope I'll be okay soon.

Saturday, June 14, 2014

#40 | Who the fuck?

"Who did that to you? Who fucked you up so bad, emotionally and mentally that you've completely shut down anyone who tries to help you. You don't talk about your feelings, you push kind people away, and you let negative people in. You refuse to open up and let someone love or care about you. Who fucking did that to you?"

#39 - Just curious.

I was checking my page views a minute ago and i realised it's 3 times more than my usual and I'm like OMG! Cause I haven't got this much page views ever since I closed down my old blog which had all my "ahlian-days" post. Not as much as then but still I'm so happy even though most views might be because of my 'boobs' photo -_____- IT'S MY OOTD for fuck sake..

Moving on.

I wanted to blog out of the blue because something crossed my mind and I really wanted to know why. Why are some people so heartless to someone they used to love? I'm not pinpointing anyone, just generalising. For example, some people choose to leak out nude photos of their ex after they had broken up. Or try to embarrass them in front of everybody. Why do people hate someone they used to claim was their everything? It's weird, isn't it? How can you hate someone that was once yours so much, to the extent of ruining their life?

Maybe you say mean things to them because you want them to let go of you or maybe you have your reasons. But in my opinion, it's stupid, immature and selfish. You're hurting yourself (if your intention was good that is..) and someone that you claimed was your world. It's not like he or she would love you any less just because of the mean things you do to them, if she was serious with you. 

I know I know.. I'm just a seventeen year old, what do I know about love? Well... I'm just curious, that's all. If you can feed my curiosity, please let me know. My ask.fm is right at the side bar. 

Friday, June 13, 2014

#38 - Night.

Just when you thought someone truly cared about you, they start proving that they were actually just curious. Stop dreaming, stop being so naive. They don't care. When will you ever learn your lesson..?
I have so many problems. I need someone I can confide in. Someone that has exam the next day but would willingly listen to me cry on the phone at 3am. But would anyone do this for someone that's just a friend? No one would.. I can't handle all my problems by my myself but I can't talk to anyone about it too because the last time I tried, I seemed annoying. I am annoying. I can't even stand myself at times..

I don't know. I don't feel sad about us tonight. Maybe I'm finally starting to let go or maybe I just feel numb tonight.. I don't even know what I'm feeling anymore.

It's one of those nights where too many things suddenly appear in my head. Typing whatever that comes to my mind right now so it might not even make sense.

My favourite place to have ice cream because it's super worth it, their creative ice cream flavour, water cooler and the ambience there. One thing, it's too far from my place.

"But if you don't love my every flaw, then you mustn't love me - not at all."

Felt so so happy in the court yesterday because of the people there. It was such a great feeling. I don't think I've been this happy in a really long time. I don't know if they feel the same way but I definitely enjoyed myself in that 3 and a half hour. I feel so thankful for them even though I only know some of them today. It's a weird feeling.. but I'm not complaining.
Thanks guys

Monday, June 9, 2014

#37 - Thoughts.

Am I really that hard to handle? I guess so, since that's what everybody says.

I don't understand humans. Why can't we be more open about our feelings. That's what I hate about humans. Always keeping everything to ourselves. By the time you choose to let it out, it's probably too late. No one knows what is gonna happen the next minute, or even second. Anything can happen. Would you rather live regretting something you did not do or regretting something you did? I would go for the latter.

I'm pretty addicted to Tumblr recently, and I'm finding my accounts to follow. And so, I came across this on Tumblr and I thought I should share it. 
"Become your own best friend. Over the years I have had to learn to become my own best friend. There were many nights I spent crying myself to sleep, sad and lonely with almost every given heartache. Over time I realised that I had to learn to comfort myself to overcome the pain. It's a process, and I'm still learning how to do it, but I've gotten so much better. I can honestly say that I'm my own best friend. Goal: Love yourself and treat yourself as you would treat your very best friend. You deserve the same love you give to others."
I don't think I'll ever get bored of Tumblr.

And I created Dayre too, which I update every single day. Follow me, thanks.

Monday, June 2, 2014

#36 - Live for the moment.

Impromptu meet up. The amount of photos and laughter we had was crazy. Not even kidding. Have I mentioned that I love impromptu meet ups like this? I think I did. Even though I woke up feeling like a dead fish because I caught a cold which I have completely no idea how that happened, I'm still glad my first day night of June was spent with people that made me laugh till I grew abs. lol not literally but..... hey at least I'm happy! And I guess that's the most important thing to me right now.
Some people said I'm lifeless. It's true, I'm quite lifeless right now because I have nothing to do at home everyday so anyone that calls me out, I pretty much agree immediately. C'mon la, I'm just having with different people. Nothing wrong with that.

A million shots to get this... "I'm a freaking aeroplane weeeeeeee!" -____- 
How do you like the creepy smiley I drew on my face? Haha *insert laugh w/ tears emoji* lol
Goodnight sweethearts.

Saturday, May 31, 2014

#35 - Awaken.

I was breaking down really badly yesterday, for the entire day. And the more I did, the more I felt like I will never go through this. Until I received a message from someone from the past. People around me are probably thankful for this person because this is the most hurting yet the most truthful message ever that no one else would say to me.

"The only one that's contented is you. It's hard to explain but you tend to unknowingly turn a blind eye about other people's pain and imagine them to be what you expect. You're making yourself look pathetic. You are nowhere near weak. So move on no matter how hard it is. You can't stay in the past no matter how much you want to. The past is the past."
"Maybe someday, you'll smile genuinely without the help of others but with your own capability."

It's true.
A little about myself.
I have very high expectations for everyone around me. I just want everything to go my way. That's the reason why I get upset at everything really really easily. I tend to make everything that's already bad to begin with, even worse because I overthink about all the minor details. And I'm quite prone to self-destruction when it comes to people that stands a significant place in my heart.

I'm a really pessimistic person. And I'm envious of the optimistic ones. They're all cheerful, bubbly and everything that people would love to see in a person. The kind that will brighten up everyone's day. And I wish I could share the same mindset as them. I don't want to get upset all the time..
I'm trying to do more things that makes me happy and think towards the positive side at the negative things that's occurring to me. Hopefully this helps a little! :D
(anyw, i had icecream on a colourful icecream cone today hehe)

I never like apologising or admitting my mistakes. No actually, I don't think I'm wrong at all, since young I'm like that.
But now I'm doing it because I finally know my mistakes.

A little cute quote I saw online......

"You haven't lost your smile. It's right under your nose. You just forgot it was there."


Wednesday, May 28, 2014

#34 - 50 Shades of Grey.

I got myself Fifty Shades of Grey at the popular just now. I know it's a little late but I guess I'm just weird like that. Only interested in something that has already gone out of trend. It'll keep me company till my school starts or till I get bored of it. My fake spectacles and $5.90 watch came into good use. I don't even use my fake spectacles anymore, it's just lying around the house. Got the watch, for accessorising (obviously), but I'm surprise how it's still working fine up till now. 

It's really irritating how I have to repeat myself when people ask me, "So how's your relationship going?" Do people really expect me to answer more than "we quarrelled"? I know some people are really concerned but I would appreciate if they don't ask for the reason after they know we broke up.
I've been going out almost every single day, keeping myself busy. I think this is the easiest way to move on from a break up other than getting high and ruin my health right? Haha. 

It's scary how fast time is passing. It's already gonna be June in a few days time and I still feel like 16 years old even though I just celebrated my 17th birthday on February. I wish time would slow down but then again, I want everyday to pass by quickly.

Weird humans.


Tuesday, May 27, 2014

#33 - Cookies.

A new life.

I was really sad.
And I baked some banana oatmeal cookies, so "healthy"..


Thursday, May 22, 2014

#32 - I'm sorry.

I wish I was stronger too...
I'm sorry..


Saturday, May 17, 2014

#31 - Broken inside.

15th May 2014 ; 23:20
I will never forget the moment I realised I loved you.

I miss talking about my personal feelings on this space. Because at the end of the day, this space is still mine and I have the rights to do whatever with it.

"... let's break up."
Who knows words can actually hurt more than bullets or blades. I felt the tears. I was sitting alone at the corner. The quarrel is going to start, again. But never did I expect it to end, like this. I held back my tears and tried to smile. It was the only thing to do I could do, and that was to show everyone I'm fine, I'm not affected. It was hell. But you seemed happier and that hurts me the most. Was being with me the worst part of your life?

Every single day still ended with my mind wandering to the thoughts of us, of who we were, where we stand in each other's heart. How do people get over this kind of stuff so easily? Teach me. Someone you've spent a period of time with. You do everything with him and got so used to that life. And suddenly, he's gone. It wasn't sudden for us actually. Everything was going the wrong way for us, we just chose to not see it. Living in denial, believing everything will be fine soon. It didn't, instead it got so bad, to the point where you see the hatred he has in you when he look into your eyes. Where going to bed crying has become a daily routine.

Everything I do reminds me of him and I can't help it. That's why I build walls around myself. I didn't want to get too close to anyone. Because at the end of the day, they're just going to throw you aside and abandon you.

"Take the first step and walk out of your past. Trust me." So I did. But it got worst.

He didn't understand. Why she felt that way every single day. Every time she tried to talk things out, hoping it gets better but it never did. He was the best thing that happened to me. Even though he isn't not sweet or romantic but he was really really good to me. You were never bad to me. It's just that, when you stop feeling for her , she doesn't matter anymore.

She's not foolish, she just love him too much.

17th May 2014
It's hurting so bad. So fucking bad. It feels like every part of me is broken. It scares me to think that you could love someone the way I loved you.

We knew each other on 25th August 2013 and it took awhile for me to take the first step and agreeing to meet you. We got comfortable with each other really really fast and I'm surprised cause I never thought I'll be this comfortable with anyone. I was your EVERYTHING. And you were mine.
Sticking to each other, like super glue. Baking failed cupcakes and ate all of it. Surprising you at work and walked around the book fair for 2 hours while waiting for you to end work. Bringing me to places I wanted to go. Doing stupid actions with our hands and laugh at ourselves. Eating dinner for the first time together at the airport. Walked around Ikea and pretend like we were really gonna buy a house. etc.

"Every single moment you are not in my arms, I feel very uncomfortable."

"I want us together forever."


Friday, May 16, 2014

#30 - Happy Birthday, Qi.



Wednesday, May 14, 2014

#29 - Getting back what I've lost.

Haven't been updating this space much recently. Because I'm at  home every single day, I'm not even kidding. I'm wishing for school to start soon for me so I can keep myself busy and stop myself from having those bad thoughts. Since I am soooooo free, I played around with the stuffs I've stopped for awhile and I this is the outcome. Not nicely taken but at least I have something to put up over here.

Will come back soon. I promise.


Thursday, May 1, 2014

#28 - I don't want to wake up.

没有他 我该怎么过
Harsh lines, blunt pencils. Scarred thighs, scratched wrist. Wet pillows, bruised heart.

The break up destroyed me. I'm broken. He mended me and threw me right back to hell. And there I am now, back at the place I was. 
Time have been passing really slow that's why I don't want to wake up but I haven't been getting much sleep lately. Not that I don't want to, but I can't. I automatically wake up after a few hours. And I dreamt of you last night, when I was finally going to sleep after closing my eyes on bed for an hour. I was asleep but just asleep and then you came. 
I woke up thinking it was real. I jotted it down in my notes because I didn't want to forget anything about you. 
I hate that I have to pretend I'm fine without you. I hate that I have to smile when I really can't hold back my tears, cause as far as I can see, you're doing fine without me.

I don't know when did things became so complicated for us and I don't know why.

I'm losing myself..

Saturday, April 26, 2014

#26 - Losing someone.

Hi guys. 
I'm currently taking a break at home for 2 hours before going down to my Grandma's wake. Just wanted to blog a little about how I feel. Didn't really tell anyone about it, only a few close ones. 

I used to always think about how it'll feel when you lose someone forever. Not the kind where you break up with someone and know very surely that you guys won't get together. No. Not that. It's the kind where you lose the person forever, literally. 
It's a very weird feeling. It's like you know you'll never ever feel the touch of the person or hear their laughter ever again. You don't even need to hope, because you know it's impossible. The person where you see every single day for the 17 years of your life, just gone like that. You can't say, "I'm sorry, let's go back in time and start everything over so I can show you how much I love you." 
Well, I mean you can but it isn't gonna change a thing. Not even a single bit. 

Because of this funeral, I finally believe that you really can tell who cares and who just don't feel the least bit of guilt. My mum told my Grandpa, "Just call once, if they have the heart, they will come."
I used to think that everyone that knows the deceased person would at least go down to the funeral out of respect. But nope, some people just don't feel guilty at all.

It's okay, I'm not angry at them. I just feel sad for them.

At least Grandma went away peacefully and there are people who genuinely care for my grandparents. Most importantly, I believe she's happier in heaven since she was suffering quite a bit before she was gone.

I love you, Grandma. 

Monday, April 21, 2014

#25 - Growing up.

The problem with our generation
is we all tried to grow up too fast.

Don't waste your youth growing up.

Enjoy your youth.
You'll never be younger than you are at this very moment.

Saturday, April 19, 2014

#24 - Malaysia Food Street & Akashi Japanese Restaurant.

Hello everybody! 
This post was supposed to be due 1 month ago but I didn't had time to edit the pictures, which also means I'm lazy lol.

So after our date at Underwater World and USS, we headed to Malaysia Food Street just outside USS to have our late lunch. It was pretty funny hehe. We went into USS because we had no where else to go after Underwater World. We slacked a little and I realised I'm quite hungry after about 1 hour inside so we went out to give Malaysia Food Street a try. And went back in after that haha.

Penang Lim Brothers' Char Koay Teow

Tasted pretty good because it had a really strong wok smell, if you know what I mean. But would prefer the bean sprout to be a little more cooked cause it tasted quite raw.

Penang Curry Mee
Tried a little and omg I love it so much I ordered it the next time I went to USS.

We went back to Vivo after hanging around at USS. We walked pass a Japanese restaurant and I was asking Dan with puppy eyes if we could have some sushi and omg he agreed! He's not really a fan of raw food and Japanese cuisine so I was surprised haha.

The seafood soup that was pretty salty.

And the overpriced Chawanmushi.

So angry! I was contemplating to order because it was $8 but I gave in in the end. Firstly, they forgot my order. Secondly, it tasted damn bland, the garlic made the egg tasted bitter and everything was wrong. So not worth my $8. It tasted worse than the one I had at nex's Food Junction which is only $1-2. By far the best chawanmushi I've ever had is at nex, I'm not even kidding.

Akashi Japanese Restaurant
1 Harbourfront Walk
#B2-07-09 VivoCity
Tel: +65 6681 6719
Daily: 11.30am – 11pm

Ending this post..... but first let me take a selfie.
lol okay sorry.